Talent darling, you have it. Now what you need to find, by yourself not forced in you, is your own desire and motivation for authentically bringing discipline to your life. I bet once you git over the rigors of structure – that once you had a solide routine – you would find it more liberating a freeing – and not a cop out to the rules nazis. I know you love being contrary. So contradict the Hollywood diva actres gone wild and do the unexpected –