Oksana Grigorieva will not appear on Oprah

Contrary to earlier reports, Oksana Grigorieva will not sit down with Oprah and talk about her stupid fake chest bladders. Due to her currently ongoing custody case against Mel, the judge put a gag order on both of them.

When her lawyers found out about the appearance, they shook their finger at her and hit her on the nose with a rolled up newspaper. However, Oksana still managed to sneak in an interview with PEOPLE magazine violating the seal and pissing off her lawyers. The PEOPLE interview wasn’t even interesting. Just more of the same.

“I thought he would kill me,” says Grigorieva. (Gibson, who declined to comment for this story, has disputed her account and a source close to him has said he intervened when she was shaking the baby.)

The Russian-born musician says Gibson often flew into jealous rages, talked about suicide and once brandished a gun in front of her.

She also discusses why she decided to tape Gibson’s angry phone calls. “I needed to document his threats,” says Grigorieva, who denies she leaked the tapes. She also refutes Gibson’s claim that she used the tapes to extort him.

“I’m not angry at him,” she says. “For the sake of Lucia, I really want him to be well. He has to have the courage to be responsible for what he’s done.”

In Mel’s defense, it’s really frustrating when your girlfriend won’t blow you first and say thank you. Why, if I had a nickel…